this candid chemistry;

My mother lost 65 pounds last year. My father lost 55 pounds last year.

They are still morbidly obese, and they are still struggling with old bad habits, but I am so proud of them! 

1. Jon and Noor came over yesterday and brought my family and I sausages and smiles. It was a joy to see them, and Noor made my day by telling me, “Wow, you look really good. Have you been working out?”

God bless these two lovely, lovely people.             

2.  I worked out for about two hours yesterday. I feel extremely sore and tired, but it was worth it. The rush of endorphins makes feel high for two days afterward. I’m going back tomorrow.

3. My W2s came in yesterday,so I’m filing my taxes today. On Friday, I met two local dudes who work at a factory around the corner around my house.

“They’re hiring. Here’s some contact information.” 

I’ll apply on Monday. Keep praying, praying praying.

4. I’ve been super distracted since I quit my old job. I quit so I could have time to work out, paint, play music, dance, hang out with friends. So far, I’ve spent 90% of my days lazying around in bed watching Youtube videos. 

I’ve got to find more motivation.

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Sharing a beer with my mum is a joyous (but strange) experience. So is talking about bills, men, and other adult things. I get these odd flashes of being a kid and not being able to relate to her as a person, but now we are friends. It’s still really weird, but I like it. 

Being unemployed again is a weird feeling. Waking up at noon and eating breakfast is a weird feeling. Not having to wear pants is a weird feeling. Spending almost two days at Bri’s house and just chatting and drinking wine is a weird feeling. 

This whole thing is just weird. But I like it.

unbelievable.

So my (now former) supervisor called me tonight after hours to tell me not to come in. I don’t mean a little bit after hours either. I mean over 2 hours after hours… from her personal cell phone… and left a message.

“If you want to discuss it, call me back during business hours tomorrow.”

Are you kidding?

I called her back tonight, and pretended like I did not get her voicemail.

“Oh. Well, you don’t have to come in tomorrow.” she said, in a sleepy voice.

“Do not come in tomorrow?”

“Do not come in tomorrow. Do you have anything personal left there?”

“Just a folder. It’s got work papers in it. And some food in the refrigerator.”

“I see. We will send your folder back to you. Have a good evening.”

What? I already quit. How can you fire someone who’s already quit?

I’m beginning to think that quitting was the best decision I’ve made in a while. 

my moon is down (and my wallet is closed, sorry)

1. My parents, because their van is dead, took to trying to resurrect the Tercel, again. Now they’re looking at me to cough up 300 dollars that I do not have for a car I do not want or need anymore.

I’ve already decided that the answer is “no”. I’ve lost count on how much money I’ve poured into this heap, but I’m certain it’s over 2000 dollars. That’s a freaking trip to Aruba, with skydiving and lobster included. I’m done with that car. I’ve been on the bus most of this year anyway. If they want to replace tires and stuff for it, fine, but I’m done driving until my aunt (finally) decides to buy her next car and I take her old Civic off of her hands.

2.  I showed up to work yesterday in a pair of yoga pants with a hole in the left buttcheek. I woke up very late yesterday. I had 15 minutes to get from my bed (where I sleep nude) to my bus almost half a mile away. This week can’t end quick enough for both me and my employer, I suppose.

3. I’m feeling the walls close in on me. I’m trying to eject from this life while I still can.

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